A9lan Ana Majnouunak (34)

I am truly sorry for disappearing like this guys. I know this is weird and all, but a lot of things suddenly happened in my life. Not necessarily bad, but.. different.

This story is getting harder and harder to write because I'm forced to remember painful memories that I don't want to even think about.

Painful memories that are still ongoing today.

Things that just happened half an hour ago.

I will end the story soon, I'm not going to tell the real ending, because I don't know what will happen in a few years.

So, I'll put an ending in which I think is possible, and yet I dream to happen.

No worries guys, my blog is still here. And a new story WILL be up soon :)

Love you forever and always

xx

Alvaro.

ENJOY!

ps, i changed the template for the blog, new template= new beginning :)

sorry for any new readers who have to read any previous posts, some of the texts are black or really dark, your going to have to highlight 'em to read 'em..

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Previously..

"A77 YA7MARA! Tara 7aaaaaar!" I screamed and lunged towards her to attack her.

Dalia laughed even harder.

"Ya chlabaaaaa! Ebyeg3edoooooon!" Jude kept on te7el6iming..

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Ayaam kam 3eshnaha.. Ya ma7lahaaa!

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I closed my eyes and retreated backwards, lying on the chair.

"Sho? What's wrong? 3am terjefee!" said Carla.

Carla is the only make up artist I trust for weddings and such.

"Um, huh?" I was confused. I laughed hesitantly, "Madri!"

Carla winked, "Erta7y ya 3emri ertaa7y!"

She applied makeup and we talked about various topics: from shoes, to food, to heartbreakers.

"7ayate shoofe 3ajbetak?" She motioned for me to look at myself in the mirror.

I jerked my head towards the huge mirror on my right. I smiled.

It was absolutely perfect.

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9:04pm

8a3a elmaseya, Shereton.

I took a step forward after saying greeting the bride and groom's family. The decoration were absolutely stunning.

The theme was white and silver. There was a walkway to the dancefloor in which it had white roses scattered all over the ground..

The walls were covered with white and silver drapes.

Women danced and girls giggled.

I smiled and took a deep breath, feeling all eyes boring at back of my head.

I myself wore a white dress. The top was shaped as a "v". It was tight till my knees, then it sprawled big and had a exaggerated tail behind it.

I felt a hand on my arm, "Hallaaa 7abeebti!"

I looked to my left, "Khalti Luluuuuu!" I squealed.

Ambayh! Men metaa mu shayfat.haa?! I thought as I kissed her.

"Shloonech? Menzemaan mu yayaatnaa!"

I laughed, "5alas wela yehemech, sbou3 ilyaay ana 3indekom!"

"Ta3alaaay lazm tsalmeen 3ala cham wa7daa.." She grabbed my hand and walked towards the mob.

A beautiful woman dressed and red was holding a glass of water, talking to women next to her, and making jokes.

She took a quick sip and looked towards me.

Khalti Rania! I didn't recognize her..

Fazaat men moukaanha, "Halaaa! Hala bel7elweeen! Sh'hal 7alaat Joory? Mashallaah la elahaa ela allaah.." She squeezed my arms as she kissed me.

I smiled, "Men thouqch 5alty magasartay! Ba3aad 3umri.."

I went around elqa3a and had to greet a few more people..

When I finally sit down, I took a good look at the kousha. It was a big couch that looked like a huge rose. It was more round shaped and big. Welcoming and comfy looking silver pillows surrounded it.

Crystal decorations were hanging around it..

My mom interrupted my thoughts and admiration of the beautiful kousha and said, "Yallaaa Joory goumay reg9ay!" She nudged me.

I shook my head and squealed, embarrassed, "Youma lata7rejeeny! Enshalah ba3ad shway!"

Mawe3ait ela 3amaty yaw oo es7eboony men eedi, "YALAA! Ylaa gomay wareena rag9ech el 7elo!" They were seriously nagging.

Laygouuuuuuuul, laygouuul.. laygouul 3ethra el mesafa..

*Instruments and drums started playing*

Laygouul 3ethra elmesafa.. tara el masafa gireeba! Ou athen ma men kalamaa.. bain el 7abeeb oo 7abeeba!

Hmm, I love this song.. Why not?

I got up and flattened out my dress. I walked towards the dance floor and started dancing.

3awaafi chana teghayaar.. 3awafi chana tekabaar..

Okay, this is okay.. I ignored the people staring at me and closed my eyes, enjoying the beat.

I love wedding. Especially the songs and dancing. I knew my dancing was pretty good, and people actually loved watching me dance.

3azeeeeeez, 3azeeez, 3azeez ou nafsii 3azeeza... 3azeez ou nafsi 3azeeza! 3azeez ou nafsi 3azeeza! Abee3 men ba3 feeni.. wagoul yakhelyy ya anaa..

I sang along with Tare8 El5urrayf in a low voice.. I loved his voice..

3awaafi chana teghayaar.. 3awaafi chana tekabaar..

I saw 5alty Rania dancing and she winked, whispering "3ashaat!" She held my hand to change my position I was heading to, making me dance with her..

I smiled as the song changed..

Ya kaam elreeshaa! Ya 6air yaa '6awi!

I looked around elqa3a .. Sheft theech ely 9afegatli, sheft theech ely t2asher 3alai oo t7esh, sheft theech ely tyabebli wetshaje3ni..

Blekh, screw you haters, I thought.

When the song finished, I headed back to the furniture where my mom was sitting.

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10:56 pm.

Qa3a elmaseya, Shereton.

"Ya jema3at elkhair, ya36eekom el3afia.. 7jabatkom law sama7taw, 7jabatkom .. Elga9ar dash 3ala zaffat el3aroos.. 7jabatkom.." said Tareq.

I looked around looking for my shawl.

I covered up and waited patiently for the bride to come in.

Haab elsa3aad, ou habaybaa..

Covered from top to bottom with white and sparkles, the beautiful bride took a step forward elegantly.

She held a bouquet of red roses with both hands. 6ar7at.ha kanat wayd 6uweela, and it was beautifully placed under her hairdo. She wore a big silver tiara, screaming out princess.

Her makeup was not too much at all, she was a beauty queen.

With each step forward and smiling, she looked even more beautiful to the audience.

She captured everyone's attention.

I clapped and smiled, Akhh, meta doury enshalaah? Yarab erzegni ib rayel zain, ou 7asan, ou 3yaal mu6e3een! Allaahuma ameen..

Sounds of yebaab took over the room.

Elga99aar was right behind her, singing mightily with all his heart. I giggled, taking a peek at his famous Besht and gold rings in each finger.

The music was faster, the beat became more rapid. I looked to my right. Her sisters and mother were helping her go up the stairs. Some held her hand, she clutched it tightly. Others were holding her dress from behind.

Finally, she sat down.

Another mob of people started dancing in front of her. Soon after, a Rad7a formed.

I smiled for the lovely moment of happiness the two families were sharing.

After the racket was over, a lovely song was on. A song, Nasser once ahdaali eyaha.

A7ibek 7oub jenoony, wa'6emek fy 3youuny.. Ashoufak noor 3ainee, wantathrak tejeenyy.. Wa'3a6eek ib jefoonyyyyy... Allaah allaaah allaah allaah 7abeebi allaah allaaah..

The drums started playing and the beat was faster.

I got up, and danced, singing along the lyrics. My heart winced at the fact Nasser loved it.

After the song was over, wa7da asheraatli ine arou7lahaa.. I smiled and walked towards her.

"Waay ya7elwich! Shismech men bentaa?"

I smiled and said, "Bent flaan el flaani.. Isme Joory elflan."

The old woman gasped, "Omch flana elflaaaaani?!"

I nodded and laughed at her reaction.

"Wainha?! Wainha mawjoodaaa?!"

"Eee eeh kahy!" I pointed and walked her towards my mom.

The woman greeted my mom and hugged her. She pointed towards me, "Waaay ya7elo bentech mashalaah! Kubaraaat! Rag9haa eyanen mashalah.."

I blushed and felt my cheeks turning hot red.

I thanked her.

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12:54am

Qa3a Elmaseya, Shereton.

Zaffat elma3arees went on. I yawned and looked at the watch. The couple held each other's hands and left.

I sighed at the romantic moment as I saw them leaving.

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3:02am

Home

I kicked off my heels. My feet were killing me! I lazily walked to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror.

I opened my drawer and fished through, looking for my make up remover.

After spending a long time taking off my make up, taking off the number of God knows how much Mashat I had in my hair, I threw myself onto my bed.

Aahh, it was so welcoming. I hugged my pillow and closed my eyes.

A song was stuck in my head, Kashaafuu sir el hawaa.. Wajanaw 3ala elgharaam.. Kashafu sir elhawa wajanaw 3ala elgharaam.. Kashafu 7atta janaaw.. wajanaw 3ala elmustahaam..

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A smell of someone cooking eggs woke me up.

My stomach rumbled. I was really hungry. I looked at my phone, it was 10am.

Urgh! What am I doing up soo early?? I thought as I sat up straight.

I picked up the phone and asked for my breakfast to be ready.

Meanwhile, I got up and headed to the bathroom to wash up. Soon after, a knock was at the door.

I peeked from the bathroom door and yelled, "Come in!"

Terry came in with a tray. The smell of Chai 7aleeb and a turkey bacon filled the room.

"Thank youu!" I yelled from the bathroom. A few minutes later, I stepped out of the room and took a big sniff.

I walked over to the table, and looked at my breakfast: Chai 7aleeb and our famous Turkey Bacon sandwich.

After enjoying my breakfast, I decided to take a jog in the mamsha.

I walked over to my closet and pulled out comfortable jogging pants, and a large t-shirt. I fished through my shoes and decided to go with the blue puma one.

I grabbed my iPod and phone and headed outside the door.

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11:34am

Mamsha

I looked around and felt the hot sun rays on my arm and face. I pulled back my hair into a pony tail, put on my headphones, and started jogging.

A blast of music came up:

From looking and noticing you, noticing me.. Watch out, I've seen her type before. That girl is so dangerous, that girl is so dangerous.. That girl is a bad girl, I've seen her type before..

Aaah, Akon's Dangerous.

A light breeze brushed my cheeks. I kept on jogging for two rounds, as I was going into my third, my phone vibrated.

I stopped, panting, and got my phone out from my pocket. Dalia was calling.

"Aluu?"

"Ahlaaain!" Dalia's voice squealed.

"Hala feeeeeech!" I started walking.

"Ha, what are you up to?"

"Jogging walla.."

"My place in a few?" She suggested.

"5ala9, 5osh.. bas atsaba7 wayeech."

"Ayabaaa! Yeebai starbucks ib6ireejich please.."

"Enshalaah 7abeebti.." I said.

"Bye!"

*click*

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Starbucks Kaifan.

1:02pm

"Two vanilla skimmed Latte's please..!" I quietly told the cashier what I wanted. I fished out a 10 KD bill and handed it to him.

He handed me back the rest of the money and a receipt. As I walked to the pick-up order part of starbucks, I fished through my bag looking for my iPod.

I placed the headphones into my ears.. Before I knew it, music came blasting ..

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now..

Akhh, eeh wallaah I could really use a wish right now!

"TWO SKIMMED VANILLA LATTE'S!" Yelled the Starbucks guy.

I gave him my receipt and grabbed the latte's. After placing the two cups on the table, I opened bags of Splenda's and placed two in each.

I took a sip to check if it were alright or not, and it was perfect.

I put on my sunglasses and headed towards the door.

I gulped as I looked up. Someone I really didn't expect was right at the door, staring at me.

Ohhh boy.

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**3awafi, Tareq AlKhurayef, originally by Abdulmohsin Almuhanna

**Kam Elreesha, Tareq AlKhurayef

**A7ibek 7oub Jenouni, Tareq Alkhurayef

**Dangerous, Akon

**Airplanes, Hayley Williams and B.o.B.

A9lan Ana Majnouunak (33)

A7ibkoum kelekom. Thank you so much for your support! I love you and always will xx Here's an extra long post:

Previously:

We headed back up to our rooms and packed our bags. I left out the essential stuff I'm going to be needing for tomorrow.

I wore my comfy Hello Kitty PJ's and slipped under the covers.

I brushed my hair and thought for a while about Na9er.

Shasawee feeh hal walaad? Mahma yegouloun, mahma, 9aar mahma taam... Enta el bedayat, wakher sa7el ou meena!

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I felt vibration under my pillow. Grunting, I stuffed my face into the pillow, and slipped my hands under to check my phone.

Na9er calling.

I threw my phone back under my pillow and closed my eyes tightly.

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"Jaay! Yala wake up! It's our last day here..!" said Jude softly.

"Yala ya 7elwe! 9abaa7 el kheer!" said Dee in a Lebanese accent.

"Mmm.. okaay.. Fee zuwarraa?" I grunted.

"Not that I know of, yala 6ala3tlech your heels and dress.. entay bas goumay ghaslaayy ou nsa3dech!" said Dee.

"Enshaalah, enshalaah.." I said softly. I threw the covers off of myself and dragged myself to the bathroom.

I brushed my teeth ou ghassalt wayhee.. I took a quick shower and slipped into my dress.

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"Elsalaam 3alaiikum!" I said as I entered el Duwaneyya.

Everyone greeted us back.

Shockingly, Mi7sen was there.. Perfectly 3ala hay2etah ga3d yam 3amii 3abdulah, yesoulef weyah ou yeshrab chayy..

I threw a quick glance at Jude. She was already staring at him.

Ga3adna kelena, ou soulafna, had a great time.. 6ab3an Jude Ou Mi7sen couldn't stop stealing glances at each other..! It was adorable really..

Na9er mar 3ala balyy.. it hurt, it really did.. Chithe ya Na9er 6ela3t? Walla ine-

3ami 3abdulla interrupted my thoughts, "Yala tefa'6elaw 3al ghadda ya jema33a.. Emshaw khansali el 3a9er bel awwal.." He said to the guys.

I headed upstairs to freshen up.

14 miss calls.

3 messages.

5 BBMs.

Most of the miss calls were from Na9er, a couple from my other friends..

I opened one of the messages.

"Pick up!"

"Joory.. yam3awda wala 7agech 3alaii

3ala kel ely sawaiitah.. ana asef 3ala

ely 9ar.. manii 3aref shagoulech ana!

I'm willing to do anything you want

me to do ine aratheech..

Please rideely khabbar.

Sincerely, the love of your life."

Both were from Na9er.. as I read the messages, I heard his voice saying the words he wrote..

Did he really mean it, though?

I opened the third message..

Urgh, da3aya!

Gelt 7ag Jude ou Dalia 3an el messajaat.. Galouli a7geraa.. Ou ena ely sawaah mou shuwaiya!

I was hesitant.. I'm not willing to give all of this up and throw it in the trash..

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We had lunch, and 7amoud came with his dad.. It was good seeing him.. He seemed fine, ou ertaa7 galbi ib shouftaah..

After lunch, however, Jude was washing up .. I walked towards her to wash my hands..

She looked at me and smiled, "It's going to be alright honey.."

I shook my head and looked at myself in the mirror.

"I don't know.. I'm not willing to give up everything this fast.."

Jude was silent for a second. She picked up a towel and slowly dried her hands as she was thinking..

"What you really need is closure," she suggested.

"You think so?" I lifted an eyebrow.

Jude winked, "I know so!" She placed the towel in the hamper and handed me a towel and kissed me slightly on my cheek.

I smiled and looked back.

Surprisingly, Mi7sen was right there, leaning against the wall and smiling.

I shot a glance at Jude and gave her a mysterious smile, "So, um, I'm leaving now.." I said awkwardly and left the two love birds alone.

Dakhalt ghurfat el esteqbaal.. everyone was there.

I sat down in a sofa by myself. I took my time, ou adri inee tana7t wana ga3da afaker, bas I decided to see Na9er and tell him how I feel about everything, and simply walk away.. Yep, that's going to be my closure..

Suddenly, someone plopped down next to me.

I jerked my head to my right, it was 7amoud..

I smiled.. He smiled back, revealing his perfect white pearl teeth..

I looked away and drifted away ma3a elsouwalif..

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3:45pm

Starbucks, man6u8a el 7urra.

Many months later..

I sat down and took a big sniff into my skimmed vanilla latte.. It smelt amazing!

Jude was sitting right next to me..

"So, Mi7sen galy elyouum raye7 elshalaaih.. Wayy Joory! Remember? Wala chena ams youm kena in6el 3ala ta7at we spy on him.. Wala elayyam tarketh!"

I smiled and nodded. It's been months, since I ever talked to Na9er.

It killed. Many sleepless nights, sobbing, and crying myself to sleep.

Yeah, it was hard on me.. But I eventually got over it.

I took a deep breath, and sipped my perfect scented latte.

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8:01pm

Bedroom.

It's been a long time since I've talked to 7amoud, I miss him.. really bad.

Wayd teghayar 3alaii.. magam yedig.. magam yes2aal..

I was positive he fell in love with a girl, because I constantly find another line he was talking to, it was ridiculous.

So I decided to back off..

I shuddered off my thoughts and opened my laptop, and TV to watch Friends.

I paused the video, and decided to make popcorn and get me a diet coke.

Rushing down the stairs, I opened the fridge door and got out a diet coke. I popped in the microwavable popcorn in the microwave, and went to my mother's room.

Ge3adt weyaha shuwaiiya, she said ena kan waraii 3ers in a few days..

I smiled, I love going to weddings.. Such a happy enviroment.. What's not to love? Music? Check. Dancing? Check. Yummy food? Check. Happiness? Most definitely check!

I jogged back to the kitchen and got out a bowl.. Fathait el popcorn dakhel el bowl.

I had a quick flashback..

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"Shhhhh!" giggled Dalia. "Betga3doun Khalti ou 3amii men elnouum!"

The microwave kept on beeping and making the silly sounds it usually makes.

This made us giggle even harder.

Jude came in. She gasped, "Ya7mara! Jooreyoo! Lail7een mabadaltay?! Tarra Na9er gall two minutes wuhwa barra!"

"Shit!" My eyes widened. "Esa3a cham al7een?!"

"3 a.m.. Yallaaa Joory!" Whined Jude.

"Okay.. Okay.." I said and looked at Dalia.

6ab3an Dalia 8amta eltha7ka, ou wayeha kan film! She bursted into laughter and started to throw popcorn seeds on me.

"A77 YA7MARA! Tara 7aaaaaar!" I screamed and lunged towards her to attack her.

Dalia laughed even harder.

"Ya chlabaaaaa! Ebyeg3edoooooon!" Jude kept on te7el6iming..

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Ayaam kam 3eshnaha.. Ya ma7lahaaa!

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- Ely Lega A7baba, Rashed El Majed.

My Dear Readers..

My loves,

I'm deeply sorry for not completing what I have begun, but this is a hard time in my life, and hope you guys understand.

I will continue writing whenever I can..

I love you all so much, thank you for your support;*

Please bare with me..

- Alvaro.